Two Years Ago Today

Two years ago today...

My baby's tiny 9 pound body was sedated, anesthetized and sliced open; her little heart stopped so that it could be fixed up by skilled hands.

Two years ago today...

I had to trust that I would see her smiling face again, as I handed her to a team that could do for her what I could not.

Two years ago today...

She had the chance to start again; whole and healed.  And we too were given the gift of starting anew.



I have no doubt that Cora wouldn't have lived much longer without that surgery.  Waiting for that day to arrive, watching her struggle, and watching myself dwindle as my fear started to erase me...  It's a hard time to remember. 

Thankfully, the lives we have been living since that day make that time seem like a smaller and smaller part of our lives; a smaller part of Cora.

I am so grateful to be able to reflect on those memories, to remember my love and my fear, and then to look at my smiling, silly, sassy, stubborn, defiant little girl.  Happy heart day to us.