All in a Tizzy

I've been having blog withdrawals.  I think about blogging every day.  I talk to myself in my head, composing ideas and paragraphs.  But I keep getting interrupted.  Maybe there is too much to think about, write about, post about.  Or maybe not.  And picking up the camera today I discovered I've barely turned it on since Christmas.  (Sigh).

I've been getting excited and obsessed with year-end reflections now that we've rolled into 2012.  And of course, my little Bean turns the big ONE next week, so that's been weighing on me.  Despite wanting to plan celebrations, both big and small, I find myself thinking and not doing.  Yes, we'll have an early 1st Birthday celebration this weekend for both Cora and Kai, which will end up being the "big to-do".  I think we'll keep things quiet for the actual day and just celebrate with the three of us at home.

But oh the emotions I'm having these days about it all.  So much pride, so much love, so much nostalgia.  To top if all off, I finally bought the book Gifts: Mothers Reflect on How Children with Down Syndrome Enrich Their Lives.  So much love and inspiration in there.  So much that I feel could have come directly from my own heart.

I guess I'm in a bit of a tizzy.  Where are all those partially written blog posts I've been composing when I need them?

I'll keep thinking and hoping that somehow I can transpose my feelings into words and save them here for my girl.