Monday, October 10, 2011

31 for 21- Day 10: Seriously?

Today I cried browsing through the newborn photos of a photography blog.

It's funny how emotions can hit you, especially when you think you're happy with everything.  And I really am.

But looking at the sweetest little 18 day old baby with his proud parents makes me remember when Cora was 18 days old.  It was a happy day because we were going to take her home from the hospital the next day.  And that was truly wonderful.

I guess I just feel a little sad that we didn't get to do a beautiful photo shoot with her at such a young age.  That she had a feeding tube taped to her sweet little face, was still quite jaundiced and we were hesitant to even take her out since it was so critical to keep her healthy before surgery.  We certainly were not up to planning a professional photo shoot.

But the last thing I want to do is feel sorry for myself.  Because after all, we did manage to get the sweetest and best girl, even if her earliest photos are a little blurry, captured in the awful NICU lights.  I guess you can't have everything!

Okay, I admit it.  She was still such a pretty girl, tube, NICU lights and all.


  1. I always struggle about the lack of photos from the NICU stay. We didn't ever get all those great family shots. It was her in the little bassinet, or one of us trying to hold her around the many wires. In the grand scheme of things, it's not a big deal, but it always gets me when I see others photos.

  2. I always feel a twinge of jealousy when I see beautiful newborn pictures all rosy and cuddly. Hailey's are her in the bassinet hooked up to monitors and a feeding tube. Then I think about all the time I had just bonding with her. Me and her snuggled in the recliner blocked from the entire world. I do cherish that time in the NICU.

    You have one beautiful little can make up for lost time with the photo shoots now!

  3. She is truly beautiful, Leah. You must be unbelievably proud.

  4. She sure was a pretty girl. She still is. I remember those early days. Even after having Cal. He was in the NICU and I had to pass the other babies on my long journey to see him. I felt that I lost something by not having my baby in there or even in my room with me. It still bothers me, 3.5 years later. But, life goes on and now you are preparing for your next one! Very excited for you.


Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me!